The Need to Want
My head is spinning with quite the rush lately and I’ve got way too many reasons. I seem to have caught myself spiraling pretty quickly into a mass of confusion perpetuated simply by my ever-pondering thoughts. I’m stuck and I can’t get out. There are so many things that I’ve become a victim of but at the same time I’m rightfully positioned as the culprit, respectfully. I continue to forego with this incredibly unfortunate situation only to find myself being pleasured temporarily with unnecessary needs and wants. My friends and family look at me with such glow and lust, thrusting my very being on a pedestal fooling the crowd being graced by my supposed heart warming light…
But I’m still spiraling.
I want to love, but I can’t believe in myself. I want to need it. I need to want it. I cannot tell you. I cannot show you. I want to tell you. I want to show you. I need to need you. I feel to need.
But in the end… I just want to need you.
I just want you.
Because why not??
"She never looked nice. She looked like art, and art wasn’t supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something."
Alright. Truth is, I’m drunk.
Truth is, I’m sitting on my friends kitchen floor.
Truth is, I had a ton of fun with good people.
Truth is, I’m exhausted.
Truth is, I just had the greatest sandwich ever.
But all that aside…
Truth is I’m absolutely crazy for you.
Summing up my past month
I like this girl WAY more than I expected. Haha need to learn to play it cool
"Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it. "